Alec Baldwin was personally tormented after he accidentally shot and killed the cameraman Halyna Hutchins in October on the set of the upcoming movie Rust, described in an interview on Thursday how he had had nightmares about guns and could have considered suicide if he thought he was responsible.
“I have dreams about this constantly now. I woke up constantly when the gun went off,” he said ABC‘NS George Stephanopoulos in a chat that aired on Thursday. “I haven’t slept in weeks. I was really struggling physically. I’m exhausted from this.”
The actor appeared very shaken when recounting his experience on set, many times burst into tears when expressing his admiration for Ms. Hutchins.
“I could have killed myself if I thought I was responsible, and I don’t take it lightly,” Baldwin said, adding, “I can no longer take my career for granted.”
In Thursday’s interview, the actor described how, before shooting, do Rust with dedicated professionals like the deceased cinematographer rekindled his love of filmmaking after a long grueling career.
“So help me, God, this makes me love making movies again,” he said.
Before long, however, that joy turns to grief.
Baldwin asserted that he never pull the trigger on the shotgun that unexpectedly killed Miss Hutchins and injured the film’s director Joel Souza; however, in his interview, he detailed his recollection of how the gun went off on the set of New Mexico.
“I was holding the gun she told me to hold,” he said, before describing how he stepped back and then released the gun’s hammer and a gunshot rang out.
Authorities are still investigating how the live rounds ended on land Rust, and how they were loaded into what the crew members thought was a “cold” gun.
“You’ve had hundreds of hundreds of millions of bullets hit movie sets and TV shows, and four or five people have died,” Baldwin told ABC. “Those deaths were tragic and disgusting. Believe me, I will do anything in my power to undo what I did. But I don’t know how that bullet got into that gun. I do not know. I’m all about doing whatever it takes to get us to a place where this won’t happen again. “
https://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/americas/baldwin-interview-suicide-career-rust-b1968964.html Alec Baldwin says he ‘can’t claim to be ***’ if career ends after Rust shooting