Britney Spears In a post-Christmas reflective mood, she opened up in a lengthy Instagram post in which she explained why she took a break from composing music and performing while describing a Crisis of faith tested her only to restart her resolve.
The note posted on Monday (December 27) opens with the suggestions: “When you wake up. PRAYER… When life gets tough. PRAY. If you are not sure. PRAY. When you’re happy. PRAY. God is always with us.” Those slides lead to a lengthy note in which the 40-year-old singer discussed a time when her faith was tested.
“I had an experience many years ago where I no longer believed in God!!!! From every angle, I am hurt for no reason and my family is hurting me,” Spears wrote, without describing the specific situation. “I was in a state of shock and my way of dealing with it was fake denial. It is too much to really face. Then it was full and my heart took over my heart and I was a lion. “
Spears has spoken more freely since the judge the end of 13 years of legal preservation has her estranged father, Jamie Spears, and a group of lawyers control almost every aspect about the star’s personal and professional life. During her tumultuous times, Spears said she “screamed to herself a lot and I kept all that pain to myself”, lamenting that she never had to face the person who did. hurt yourself. Instead, she writes that she chose the “fake denial” approach that “everything is perfectly fine” because she said she didn’t want to cause conflict.
On the inside, however, Spears says she’s “absolutely screaming… I want to be nice but what they’ve done to my heart is unforgivable!!!!” And while for the most part, Britney doesn’t go into specifics, she did note that it took her 13 years to be able to perform new songs and remixes of her old songs and declare announced that she only had two months off between her four years. duration of the show resides in Las Vegas.
“And every time I ask I get ‘no’!!!!! It was a set up to fail me but I know exactly what I want my fans to see and it makes no sense for network shows to feature my music with remixes of all even my music… but the person who owns that music said no!!! Spears noted that her sister, Jamie Lynn, was allowed to remix her songs, but Britney was not. At one point, the singer even hinted that she would get “more respect” for doing Playboy spread rather than to write a book.
For those wondering why Spears seems to have turned her back on music – she hasn’t released a new album since 2016 glory and hasn’t performed live since the end of her four years Britney: Piece of Me Residing in Las Vegas in 2017 and canceling a planned follow-up, Dominate in 2019 – the male singer said it was a combination of many factors. “Too much time wasted just embarrassing and humiliating me and I guess most now it seems odd why I’m not even musically active anymore,” she wrote.
Spears said that no one knew the “horrible things” that had happened to her, adding that after what she’s been through, she scares people and the music business by explaining why why she took a long break from recording and performing. “They really hurt me!!!!!! Not being musically active is my way of saying ‘F-k you’ in a sense when it’s only really benefiting my family by ignoring my real job,” she said.
The note, she said, is an attempt to empathize with others whose faith is as tested as hers. “Believe me, I know and it’s not fun,” she wrote. “Last year was a year of growth for me… I still have a long way to go!!!” Spears said her goal for 2022 is to push herself more and do the things that scare her, “but not too much.”
“We are only human and I am not superman,” she wrote. “But I know what makes me happy and gives me joy and I try to meditate on places and thoughts that allow me to experience that!!!!!” In a post last week, Spears filmed herself in the bathroom mirror and bounced off some high notes and listed some of her accomplishments as she promised to be hers.private cheerleader” move forward.
Acknowledging her own insecurities, Spears said in Monday’s note that she realizes she “acts like an obnoxious 8-year-old” when it comes to her career milestones on Sunday. last week, but “honestly my family has embarrassed me and hurt me deeply…so help me my own horns and see my past accomplishments reflect back on who I really am… helped !!!! ”
Check out Spears’ full post below.
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